“We will not go quietly into the night! We will not vanish without a fight!”

I had to make that quote because for one, I love movies and two, that is the best speech I have ever heard and so powerful for all situations in life. Even though he was referring to getting revenge from an alien invasion, I digress. Today, I woke up reciting that in my head. I guess maybe I was thinking about how overwhelmed I am. My demons and anxiety are starting to appear. I am going to get a bit personal in this blog, but I think it will bring comfort to readers who are or maybe suffering the same things.

I have ADHD, anxiety (above normal), codependency issues, depression, and overthinking….and for right now that is all I can think of at this moment. I know most of this came about from my past relationships, friends and romance. My family genetics has ADHD so I just knew that would show its ugly head at some point in my adult life. However, how do we control our emotions? How do we just feel…fine? Some days, I don’t even want to talk to anyone. Not even my family. One hour I am on top of the world and the next I am crying thinking my boyfriend doesn’t love me. I love therapy, which I was majoring in Psychology to become a therapist to help others, but I really love writing and I want to give that a shot before I go down that LONG journey (I hope someone can relate to that).

I went and saw a Psychiatrist and she was helpful, although, she kept shoving medication at me. Don’t get me wrong, I am all for medication! But, I don’t want to get dependent on these when I know I can practice to control these emotions! Medication was messing with me and there are SO many combinations so you waste time and money and who knows what it does to your body internally. I know I am rambling and I apologize. But the more we evolve into this fast paced world, the more I fear there will be no way back. I believe in the natural ways. I wonder if other people are feeling the same way?? If you are, don’t fret because I am definitely right there with you!

As I mentioned before, if you could go see a professional therapist, do it! I am working on that now myself. It is never too late to work on yourself and well-being. Yesterday was a low day for me, feeling alone and sad. Even though my family was trying to contact me, I didn’t want to bother them. However, that is what being there for each other means. I am sure if your family was having issues or a low day, you would be right there to help them out so why do you think you are not as important?

How do we control our emotions? How do we control our reactions to situations? First of all, my biggest advice to give you is to breathe!! I forget to breathe in anxious moments, but I am now starting to catch myself and trying to take deep breaths and slowly counting to ten. I did start counting DOWN from ten and then I was thinking what happens when I reach one?? I have tried meditation, which I will continue to do so, but if you are reading this and saying you have also tried and can’t focus, I seem to find that guided meditations help me. Guided helps me focus on the voice and what they are saying rather than just hearing calming music while my thoughts are all running and joyfully skipping about in my mind.

Another thing that helps me is saying positive affirmations. Saying to yourself “you are OK.” “You are smart.” Of course, you can say any kind of positive affirmations that you want. I personally struggle with self doubt and thinking I am not as smart as I am. At least that is what people always tell me. I second guess a lot. And that is OK. However, listening to your gut instincts and having faith in yourself is so important in everything you do in life! I could go on and on about this and maybe I will make a separate blog about that subject because of how important it is to have faith in yourself. Not just religion, but faith that you are important and working on your self-care. Having faith in yourself is a religion in itself.

I think I am going to leave this here for now. I will make a separate blog about ways to control your emotions. I am currently reading a book called “STOP OVERthinking” by Tina B Tessina. This is a workbook that is trying to dig deep into my past which is good, but yet, I don’t really like discussing or thinking about it. However…we must because it is a part of who we are. So, I will let you guys know how that goes if you are interested. Anyways, I hope you all have a good day and be safe out there! Also, do not forget to breathe and know you are important just like everyone else!